I went online, found a position that looked promising, put my application in and forgot about it. Fast forward four weeks later... I was called for an interview.... again without thinking.. OR praying about it. I agreed to the interview and a week later I was offered the position and accepted it.
I now had a job but no peace....none. It seemed like the perfect position, the hours were flexible, and the compensation was good, but had I really considered all that would change at home? Had I considered the physical challenges? Had I really counted the cost of me going back to work?
The truth was I had enjoyed being home and it has been good for me physically. Last year was kind of a recovery year for me, so it was easy to justify not looking for employment after I lost my job but, I have been feeling so much better, wouldn't I be more of a help bringing in some extra income instead of staying home?
Now, I was praying about it, (better late than never) I was thinking about what I do at home, and what things would invariably change if I went back to work. The first thing I realized was that I needed an attitude change, there was still a part of me deep down inside that believed being a nurse was more valuable than being a homemaker, especially now that my children are grown.
This is familiar territory, I have been around this mountain before. When I first stopped working I made a list of how my time could be used now that I was home
- I can work my schedule around my husbands needs
- More available for grandchildren, I can go to events and be available to assist in care
- More available for Sister-In-Law's care, and many in the facility could use an encouraging word
- I'm friends with several young moms without moms locally
- More opportunities for hospitality
- Learning new things