Thursday, June 28, 2012

Holding Things Loosely

I have been bringing things home bit by bit, piece by piece, who knew you could squirrel away so much stuff in an eight by eight foot cubicle. So far I have brought home several pictures, a lamp, some miscellaneous junk and three count them three umbrellas. I have decided to take the offer to change my status to PRN instead of completely resigning, the only requirement they have stipulated is that I take a certification test in my speciality by the end of the year. My status officially changes on Sunday, I already know I will be working some in July...but much less. My working will depend

on their need and my ability/willingness to work, it may be a little, it may be none at all

I started taking things home because I didn't want things to feel permanent and it was a way for me to continue to let go. A couple of my coworkers started sizing up my cubicle when they heard they news, I have to tell you my thought was... Really, could you wait until I'm gone! This is still my cubicle....mine! Doesn't matter that I didn't say it...it is after all an issue of the heart. The more they "surveyed" the more annoyed I got

 I stewed about this for a couple of days until the Lord got a hold of my heart. I was reminded that we are borrowers, renters, caretakers.... He owns it all. Part of the process of letting this job go was letting it all go, even my little "space" (which wasn't really mine) This applies to so many other areas of my life, things I cling onto but the Lord is kind enough to show me just one thing at a time. Right now it's all about this job. I know I am to hold it loosely, and to be willingly to walk away as the Lord directs.

After a little heart work with the Lord, I did go to my boss and offer up my cubicle late last week, I said I would work in whatever empty desk was avaliable when I came in, I then made arrangements with two of my friends that were part timers to share their space whenever they were off...after that I started taking things home....it has been absolutely freeing! You may be thinking...all this because of a cubicle.... God can use just about anything to do the refining that needs ot be done in our lives...the last two weeks he used a cubicle in mine


Creations By Cindy said...

Oh, bless your heart....It is hard to give up even the little things isn't it? I know at times I have become so territorial about the kitchen at work! YEP, sounds aweful doesn't it! Anyway, enjoy your time! Hugs and blessings, Cindy

mare ball said...

Our daughter was in the religious life for 3 years and she learned the lesson you are writing about - God owns everything. We just use it while we're here. None of it will go with us in the end. It IS liberation to realize that. Great post.

Janette@Janette's Sage said...

My devotional this morning from Oswald Chambers talked about this and I realized I was holding on to things..even in a rent home, I was settling in and clinging too much

Congratulations and blessings on your transition...God is faithful

Debbie said...

How gracious of you to offer up your cubicle. I know that wouldn't come naturally. But God is grabbing a hold of you even through this.

I've been learning to hold onto things very loosely. Although my circumstances may be different, the lessons are the same.

Thank you for visiting me at Heart Choices. I see we have many blogging friends in common; love that.

Blessings and love,

Karen said...

That's a lesson I have to learn again and again: travel llght and hold onto things loosely! Bless you

Laurie said...

Holding things loosely is a lesson I am learning day by day, and I am amazed by how tight I hold on to people and things when I look back. When I finally released my "hold" on wanting our daughters and their families to move back here, the Lord brought them back. I knew my heart and He wanted me to give them completely to Him.

You are in such a transition time, and I am encouraged by your response of obedience to give it all to God and let go of your cubicle. Enjoy this new time in your life!

Laurie said...

Oops, it should say "HE knew my heart..." :)

Farm Girl said...

This is such a good reminder to have. Even in a cubicle. It is so hard to let things go and I know that I do want to hang on so tightly and when I find myself doing that, I try to remember how Corrie Ten Boom talked about keeping your hands open so God could take out and put in as He sees fit. This is a good way to look at it.
I love the title of this post today.

myletterstoemily said...

i bet your boss is sad to see YOU go!

Vee said...

This spoke to me perhaps because I was in a similar situation a dozen years ago...no, even more. I didn't handle it as well as you have. When I started taking my things home, I knew that it was over in that little cubicle home away from home. I've never regretted it. All the best to you as you come to terms with the new situation. I think you are good at hearing God's voice in this.

Camille said...

Oh how true this is Maryann...God can use anything to teach us and to lead us along!! How wonderful to know that you are HIS and HE does indeed do all things well. :)

Blessings to you!