Tuesday, March 1, 2016

Season of Change

When it first started I didn't think our season of change would last so long. It started when my husband lost his father and our grandchildren moved away. Each event impacted us in a different way.We grieved the loss of the closeness of the grands and felt the added responsibility of keeping closer tabs on my husbands mom. Now that she is gone, there are different responsibilities and EMOTIONS that wash over me like wave after wave, I'm often caught by surprise.

In the midst of all of this, my parents health has been failing. My dad has had two significant events in the last six months, the last one happened just a day after my mother in law passed away. Life has changed for them, which means life has changed for us. I want to fix it but can't. 

When I look at the situations around me it is easy for me to get anxious, to despair, to be depressed or to even get angry. Thats what happens when I focus on the here and now. Some days I'm so bombarded by events that it's hard to focus on anything else. We need to keep our focus on things eternal.

I don't believe there are random events in this life. I believe the Lord orchestrates everything. I believe he is sovereign. I believe he is good and that he uses all things for those that believe and are called for his good purposes. Seasons of change are so hard but I am continuing to learn to trust him. He has proven himself faithful again and again, he will be this time as well.

The comfort of holding a child

Happy days at the Garden


Lea said...

Oh, bless your heart Mary Ann, life can throw such curve balls at us and it's tough at times. But, as you stated, HE is always with us, HE will see us through to the other side and we generally learn a whole lot in the process. I know through the sudden loss of my Mom and the sudden illness of my Dad there were days that I just wanted to throw in the towel. It was just more than my heart could bear. But, looking back I know He increased my faith and taught me so much about just trusting Him day by day and not looking too far down the road. May He hold you close as you and yours go through all of these changes. Hugs!

NanaNor's said...

Dear Maryann, I totally agree with Lea and pray that you will see His hand holding you up. I realized long ago that nothing is wasted with the Lord, but all things are redeemed. Sending you hugs.

Camille said...

So sorry you are deep in the throes of these waters my friend...hang in there! You are so right...the Lord will be faithful as He has been in the past. Isaiah 43:1-3 (you know these are favourite verses of mine, right?) is such a comforting passage of Scripture when the waves threaten to overtake!! Praying for you tonight. Much Love, Camille

FlowerLady Lorraine said...

Dear Mary Ann ~ The Lord is your strength through every situation. Our enemy tries his best to get us to live in fear and doubt, but God is triumphant, always. Yes, looking towards eternity and not this temporal life is the way to live. Dear Jesus be merciful to we sinners. May we focus on you.

Be well in body, mind and spirit.

I love the photo of you and your little grand. Very sweet.

Love, hugs & prayers ~ FlowerLady

Janettessage.blogspot.com said...

Well tears are rolling down my cheeks, I relate. I am praying for you, as God walks you through this change, and your new norm, for however long this season will be. Yes, look for the eternal and the God kisses of each day.

Creations By Cindy said...

Love your sweet pictures. Praying for you this morning sweet lady! Hugs and blessings, Cindy

living from glory to glory said...

So sorry for all these life changes. I totally understand. I will be praying for you... spring is coming! Roxy