Things have calmed down a bit. The flurry of doctor appointments have slowed down, no more tests for now, life settling back into it's usual routine. Things really aren't the same though and not sure they ever will be again. Once cancer interrupts your life you have a new normal. You may not be thinking about it all the time but it is now part of who you are. Even after treatment, it will always be in the back of my mind, kind of like a shadow following me. It's sad, but I look at things differently now . Don't sweat the small stuff has a whole new meaning. There is so much stuff in my life that used to bother me, that just doesn't seem that important anymore. I do believe that trials have a purpose designed by God. Although I am only just beginning this journey I am already seeing things in a different light and I am leaning more and more on the Lord for my strength. So there is change already. We have been through "deep waters" before and each time the Lord has met us in our time of need.Each time we came out different people than we were before the trial. It builds your faith for the next time you find yourself in "deep waters"
I have set the Lord always before me, because he is at my right hand I will not be shaken Psalm 16:8
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