Wednesday, January 23, 2013

My Plan

My plan for this year, among other things, was to resume a somewhat "normal" life, one that did not involve what sometimes feel like endless doctors appointments. I had a routine followup with my family doctor the beginning of the month and it was quickly apparent that she DIDN'T get the memo about MY plan. As I had mentioned earlier she was insistent that I get a previously scheduled MRI done AND she had another specialist she wanted me to see. They got me in the next day....good sign..but it was in his office that I had my mini meltdown, I had my ideas on what was wrong he had his...I left the office in tears.

That was almost three weeks ago, since then, the specialist in who's office I had the meltdown has left the practice, I was informed of this a week after I had seen him. I was assigned a new physician and will be seeing him in February. My first reaction was...you've got to be kidding, why was he taking new patients if he knew he was leaving but, then I remembered my first visit with him and decided to see it as a grace moment.

About three days after THAT call, I received a package in the mail from yet ANOTHER specialist with paperwork I needed to fill out prior to my appointment. (in case you have lost count this is two new docs I will be seeing) This also arranged by my PCP,  I have to admit at this point it was getting comical....I get it, I get it, apparently MY plan was not God's plan for me right now. I would prefer the open highway, smooth sailing, no traffic. He instead has me taking the scenic route, the back roads, the slower speeds.

Earlier this month I was pretty upset, I wasn't getting my way, but as things continue to unfold, it's obvious that God is in this. This was not my plan, not even close, but I can have peace that it is His. Time to fasten my seat belt and take in the sights he wants me to see.


Creations By Cindy said...

For I know the Plans I have for you declares the Lord......like you my friend I tend to have my own set of plans as well! This was such a good post for me today as I have been battling with my plans vs. God's plans! Thank you so much for this post. It has really ministered to me! Hugs and blessings, Cindy

Janette's Sage/Simply Your Decor said...

I just want to hug you. My parents are going through doctor after doctor appointment right, when they think they are finished something else comes up...frustrating and yet mother decided to just laugh.
I know His plans so well compared to mine...I don't understand them with my small mind, but I know Him uses all things for our good.

My prayers are with you!!!

Debbie said...

Oh can I ever relate to this frustration. I feel like it is all mom and I ever do anymore is go to the docs, tests, scans, x-rays etc. etc. etc. And when you work in my stuff too, now it is REALLY ridiculous. It is just soo true. We need to just sit back and relax, and know His plan is best.

Jer 29:11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.

Nancy said...

.Your post is so timely with a Bible study I am taking "Jonah"
I learned yesterday that life's interruptions equal divine intervention.....you seem to have already put that together.
Hugs to you and all you are going through.....

Always Nesting said...

The jumble of health care can be daunting at times. I feel for you, especially not knowing your new docs. I lost my primary a few months ago due to his relocation and still haven't "met" another. Can you imagine - with my struggles with cancer and I don't even have a primary? It's too frustrating to do the dance.

Debbie said...

Though my current scenic route does not compare to yours, I totally get this post. I keep trying to plan a trip down Normal Highway, and I keep getting sidetracked down the scenic route.

And as for that first doctor, I'm glad you had the grace moment and will not be seeing him.

myletterstoemily said...

how frustrating for you! doctors can be
so infuriating, but they can also be so
healing! :)

i pray your appointments will go
smoothly from now on . . .