Back from vacation...and back to reality. Vacation was where I was able to get up in the morning without an alarm, where I was able to rest when I was tired and where the most pressing decision I had to make was where I wanted to eat dinner. A distant memory to be sure. Wonderful break but it's not the real world. Now that I am home, I am feeling the weight of everyday life again. Finding myself easily tired, body reluctant to do what I want it to do, distractions of everyday life making their presence felt and staying active...well lets just say we only walked once since we came back....is this my new normal? Have been willing to see this all this as being allowed by God for his purposes and still believe that....but figured there would be an end point....right? And you know in all honesty...things are better than they were months ago...just not where I want them....and as I am typing it becomes crystal clear that my problem is I am not getting what I want.....it's all about what I want...not where God would have me...not being satisfied.....definitely not delighting in my weakness. My prayer is that I can get to that place again...to be content....that I will delight in my weakness...seek him more earnestly...and remember He has his purposes for everything in my life.
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Have you seen James MacDonald's new book Always True? (I see you are reading When Life Is Hard.) I thought of it in reading your post. It's so true that we don't get what we want and this can determine our attitude and outlook. Always True drives home the 5 amazing promises God makes to us and how they are all we need. It's an incredible book. I think you'd appreciate it.
God's love and peace to you on your difficult journey.
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