The title of this blog comes from one of my favorite hymns."It is Well With My Soul"
When peace like a river attendeth my way
When sorrows like sea billows roll, Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say
It is well, it is well, with my soul
Friday, May 20, 2011
Last week my husband and I had to travel out of state to get his sister. This sweet lady had been living independently with the help of family and friends for thirty plus years. Her independence was quite an accomplishment and something she was very proud of. She has told me many times over the last several days "I did it on my own"...yes "sweet lady" you did...but things have changed, she is no longer able to live independently.
We always knew she would have to move closer to us someday. Someone would have to help care for her, we were the only family besides elderly parents.
I like my ducks in a row I'm a planner...you know the control thing I have going on. My preference was that everything would have been taken care of with "sweet lady" so that when the time came, her care would seamlessly transfer to us...God had a different plan...I don't understand it...but I will trust him.
So that's our life right now. On a positive note, my endurance has improved, seems like I got my stamina back just when I needed it. I have been able to do things, I would not have been able to accomplish just a few weeks ago. And I am at peace with what has transpired over the last several days...it has been hard, but it's OK. God bringing us to the end of ourselves...we can do nothing but trust in him day by day...sometimes moment by moment.
Praying God will keep my heart soft, compassionate. We still have much to do, we are not quite settled yet...decisions still need to be made. Sweet Lady is happy, we pray that this will be an easy transition for her...trusting God.
"Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him; God is a refuge for us" Psalm 62:8